I haven't been going to class much more than once a week since I came back from Sweden. I'm not sure why, but I find myself dragging my feet at the prospect of going to my new school. I'm not sure what it is, but the environment there doesn't really whet my appetite for training.
I can't help but feel guilty about this because I'm paying for it and because I'm starting to wonder if switching was the right decision. I know the training there is good, but the people just don't feel as enjoyable and going to class feels like much more of a chore than it has in the past. I also feel bad because I can feel my body deteriorate. I hate being idle because it's like looking at a time lapse of myself and seeing my body and skill waste away.
I guess the root of all of this is why I convince myself that I don't like it there. I always have fun when I go, it's just getting over the hurdle and doing it that gives me trouble.
